Tuesday, April 12, 2016
Tell Your Heart To Beat Again (Lyrics) By: Danny Gokey
"I feel like I am shattered." That is what I said in a therapists office just about 2 years ago. It was probably a good description too. I felt like I was no longer a person, but a pile of shards on the ground with no hope of those tiny slivers ever coming back together. Basically I had given up on myself as hopeless. Thankfully I was wrong and there was hope and healing in my future.
Those slivers all did fit back together, but I was not the one who could put them back together. My two different therapists I was seeing could not put them back together. though they both have helped me tremendously along the way. I had to surrender to the one who could put me back together and shape me into his plan, his design. Since I viewed myself as not worth it and as a hopeless cause I had quit doing that a long time ago.
I had significant trauma, several things that happened that were traumatic that happened close together and then sustained over a long period of time. It had truly shattered me. I thought the person I used to be was gone forever. Well that part is true. I will never be the person I used to be. The truth is the things that happened to me have changed me, but the reconstruction the Lord has done has made me better than I was before. I experienced the healing power of Christ and that changes a person for the better.
I had to tell myself to live again and to fall straight into the arms of Jesus. Guess what I found out? His grace was big enough to hold me, to heal me, to restore me. I found wholeness once again.
I remember being stuck where I was and too many people quoting me the passage, "Forget what is behind and strain toward what is ahead..." That was not possible for me and I just did not understand why. I wanted to forget and move forward, but I couldn't. The reason alluded me then, but now I understand it was because I needed to heal. Once I started healing I started being able to move forward again. I could say good bye to yesterday. Only I could not heal myself. The Lord is the only one who can heal wounds like that. He truly is my lifeline in greater ways than ever before. My view of grace was not big enough and only surrendering to HIS GRACE would I find it was big enough to heal me. He worked it out for my good, my betterment.
I share this to remind you that whatever pain you are carrying that HIS GRACE is big enough to handle it. Jesus took stripes so we could be healed. Those stripes were not only for physical healing, but emotional healing too. He died on the cross for our spiritual healing. So surrender to the Lord whatever pain you have. He will transform it and work it for your good. He promises in his word.