She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands. Proverbs 31: 13
Ouch!! Why did this verse have to be in there!?! Eager hands-- that is part of my issue. I have to say that my hands are not eager. I dread housework. Really though it is the key to a peaceful home. Instead I need to go about my work energetically, enthusiastically, and happily. As I am going about the mundane work of housekeeping I need to remember that it is a way to say I love you to my family, but what am I saying to them if I neglect it. Yikes!!! I am just going to admit weakness in this area and work to change this weakness into a strength. I am going to work to show my family that I love them by providing a nice environment for them to live in.
I looked in a couple of commentaries at the passage as well. One commentary noted that she sought out the supplies she needed to do her work. That hit me right between the eyes. I have become so bad about waiting for Vic to bring me the supplies I need for gardening work. I need to be resourceful enough to get them myself. Now straw bales I can not fit in my trunk so I will need his help there, but the rest I should be able to do myself.
Here is where I need to adjust my view. See I remember growing up in a home where we did not clean unless someone was coming over and whenever we did clean it was a dreaded task because things were not tended to properly along the way. This has produced in me 2 negative consequences. First of all my view of housekeeping is that of a dreaded monumental, overwhelming task Also I did not grow up learning how to upkeep a home. So when the lost feeling and overwhelmed feeling come it can be difficult to become motivated. Then combine the fact that I had some during the rough years telling me how weak I was-- enough telling me this that I now view myself as weak, but I am not weak. So I see myself as weak, feel lost and overwhelmed that leads to feeling that things are hopeless and pointless. So I realize I do not need to pound this convicting verse in my head, instead I need to address my mindset and change my perspective. As I do that I will also fake having eager hands until one day my perspective and my efforts match. Then I will truly work with eager hands.